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The Mental Challenge of Running in the Dark

A night run is so much simpler when running in the country.

Running at night in the Bighorn Mountains of Wyoming. Photo by author.

“Do you have an ID with you in case they find your body in a ditch?”

After my wife saw my raised eyebrows, she patiently explained what she was trying to say and it made a lot more sense.

When we lived in a small city in Wyoming, I would take off on runs at midnight with a million stars in the sky shining. The only thing that ever really concerned my wife is that I would take a wrong turn on a country road and run way more miles than I intended.

After a year living in a city with population of 1,729,000, up from the 17,849 of a small town in Wyoming where I used to live, I know much more. I had never really considered how much of a challenge running in the dark is.

If my mental preparation for a night run in a thriving metropolis is stressful, imagine what it is like for our female running companions and/or people of color. I wrote a little about my wake-up call to the differences in my ability to run versus my friends in 2020 with Running Fearlessly.

My year living here, along with my wife’s question, woke me up to a whole new level of planning needed to complete these runs with less stress involved.

Still, If you’re not already grabbing a couple of night runs every month, you should consider adding these to your schedule.

Why Run at Night?

The vastness awaits you when you run at night. Photo by Federico Beccari on Unsplash

There is something almost euphoric when you step out into the night to go for a run. There’s already that runner high to consider. Still, knowing all of your neighbors are sitting in an easy chair binge-watching Netflix will give you an incredible high.

Throw in the most incredible stress relief you could ever imagine, and you’ll never think about eating that gummy CBD before bed ever again. The calm I have after coming into the house after a two-three hour run in the middle of the night puts me to sleep like nothing else ever has.

Scientists at the “University of Chicago’s Clinical Research Centre conducted trial runs by wiring volunteers and recording physiological changes that took place during step machine exercises at all hours: morning, noon and night.

runsociety.com article, “Breaking News: Scientists Say Running at Night Has Too Many Benefits to Count!” concluded that the body’s metabolism adapts better to evening and nighttime runs.

For those living in high heat areas, running at night is less hot, which means your body isn’t having to work as hard to keep your body temperature moderated.

The main thing that convinces me to get out and run at night as much as possible, even in a big city:

When you get to a place in your run, and you can stop and look at the night sky, the unbelievable millions of points of light blinking back at you will take your breath away.

There’s something magical about running under the stars and knowing you’re part of a vast galaxy. Maybe there’s an alien on some distant planet out for a run glancing down at our solar system. They stop and acknowledge the vastness right alongside us.

Tips on Removing Some of the Stress-Related to Night Running

This is sort of what I look like running at night. Photo by Tanya Layko on Unsplash

Whereas there are visual differences between running at night in the country versus the city, some common tips will add to your safety running at night.

The most significant visual difference is that in the country, there are no street lights. In the city at night, I often don’t need a head or waist lamp. In the country, the head or waist lamp is the only way to dodge obstacles on the country road or trail you are running.

The first safety tip I can provide is stay visible to vehicles while running at night. A head or waist lamp helps accomplish this goal as it alerts drivers that there is something different coming their way. Always run facing traffic instead of with traffic.

Along with a head lamp, wear bright clothing. Dark clothing is not the best idea when running at night. I have a friend who learned this the hard way when he was running in black shorts with a black shirt and a police car “checked” in on him because somebody had reported a person running suspiciously down their street in dark clothing. I dress as if I’m auditioning to be a rodeo clown with the brightest clothing and shoes I can find.

Another safety tip is to ditch the electronics. There’s already going to be way less traffic noise if you’re running in the city, so there’s no need to drown out what won’t be there. But the main reason to ditch the music is so you can listen to your surroundings.

The distraction of headphones, music, and your running app talking to you won’t allow you to hear traffic, anyone approaching you, and any other hazards waiting to trip up your peaceful night run.

Finally, the last tip is to stick to brightly lit areas, or find a local golf course to run. This really comes down to your preference. I prefer golf courses because there are homes near enough that I can yell. There is also a sense of peacefulness not found running on the well-lit streets.

Invite others along when I am going for night runs, especially people that have never run at night and might be nervous. I often find that there doesn’t need to be much conversation when you’re out running, but just knowing somebody else is beside, ahead or behind you, gives that extra bit of security.

There is such peace in a run at night and everybody should be able to enjoy the sensation. It saddens me greatly that we still live in a culture where many are afraid to run at night and gain the incredible benefits of a night run. We should all strive to do better at ensuring others’ safety as well as our own.

Get out there and enjoy the magic of running at night. You won’t know how peaceful it is until try it yourself.

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Learning to Live With Being Labeled a “Speed Hiker”

My running spirit animal is the turtle so I guess it fits.

My spirit running animals racing each other. Photo taken by author while running.

I was running on the Appalachian Trail in Virginia recently and was about three miles into my run when I passed another runner. We did the runner thing with a “how ya doin’?” and head nod and then I scooted around him.

I was doing a loop of the Three Ridges Summit where I ran the AT to Maupin Shelter and then catching the Mau Har Trail back to my car in the parking lot of The Priest section just off Virginia State Highway 56.

Less than a mile from my turn-around I ran into the same runner. This time we stopped and he gave me what I am going to take as a compliment…I think.

“Damn dude, you’re the fastest hiker I’ve seen on this section of the trail!”

We exchanged names and that night at camp I Strava stalked him and realized he owns the fastest times for a number of segments on the Appalachian Trail and is local legend on a bunch more. He is what most people would call a, “real trail runner”, with some podium finishes to his credit in ultra-marathons also.

I, meanwhile, do not own any fastest times on Strava segments and most likely never will. I’ve never been on top of the podium after a race and most often I’m crossing the finish line as the volunteers are breaking down everything and waiting for us “back of the pack” runners to finally finish up so they can go home.

I’m still finishing really long runs all the time, but I do not finish them quickly. Perhaps this is why his statement made me feel things that I really shouldn’t be feeling.

Why get angry or offended at something that very well could be true?

Maybe I’m not really an ultra-runner and just an ultra-hiker?

After a weekend of 15-mile, 22-mile and 14-mile runs on the Appalachian Trail, I thought I would be much happier. Instead, I was still trying to process the “fast hiker” thing.

Is It Okay to be a Speed Hiker?

From the Appalachian Trail near McCormack Gap looking down on Waynesboro VA. Photo taken by author.

Once I got back home and was able to get a nice hot shower instead of a cowboy shower in a creek, I began to process this whole “hiker versus runner” head-dilemma I was going through. I say “head dilemma” because I don’t think anybody else even knew I was feeling slightly inferior for a bit.

I found a great article on the website, www.deepertrails.com, that began to help me out a bunch. “Speed Hiking vs. Trail Running: Major Comparisons” has helped me sort through the feeling of inferiority I was going through and realize being a speed hiker isn’t a bad thing.

More than anything, it just may be misunderstood by the running community in general.

I love the way Deeper Trails defined speed hiking: “any distance of trail navigation done faster than a walk, but slower than a run, where additional gear isn’t necessarily required.

When I hit the Appalachian Trail or any trails really, I go with a hydration pack that has extra room for emergency gear in case a freak rainstorm or snow storm sneaks up on me. For emergency equipment, I carry a water filter, a mylar blanket, stocking cap and gloves. I also pack a couple of small bags of granola for quick nutrition in case the path takes longer than I originally planned. In the front pockets of my pack I carry my trail nutrition to get me 5-8 hours of running, salt tablets, and my own trail mix I created that sits well when I am “trail running”.

I suppose I may be a “speed hiker” on ascents. I almost never even try to run ascents. Small ascents I will run at a slow pace, but the majority of ascents I am fast hiking (or speed hiking) at a 15–20 minute per mile pace. If the trail gets really technical and uphill, that can slide to a 18–25 minute per mile pace. If I am on mile 30 and have another 10 miles to go, a technical uphill can slide all the way to a 30 minute per mile pace.

But I do run nearly all downhill sections, except those really technical ones with lots of rocks and/or roots. These I will skip through at a 12–15 minute per mile pace. It’s just not worth it for me to go fast and possibly mess up an ankle and not be able to run because I’m rehabbing an injury.

Selfie with The Priest Summit in the background. Photo taken by author.

Trail runners are much quicker than I am in a lot of sections of ultra-runs and my goal is to be sure I make up time on the uphill sections of races. Often I end up passing many trail runners because they are hiking and I am going at the same and sometimes faster pace than I train.

Duration is probably where I win out over a lot of trail runners. I can string together back-to-back-to-back twenty and thirty mile days. Many trail runners I know are happy with a twenty mile day followed by a ten mile day and a rest day in between. I had a two-week segment earlier in the summer where I did runs of over twelve miles every day for the entire two weeks.

Granted, I complete my runs much more slowly than most. However, my body is less beat-up and thus I am able to out-endure many other “real” runners.

Intent” is the part of the article where much of the difference comes in. When I am out running trails, this is my happy place. The John Muir quote always comes back to me when I begin a trail run. “Into the forest I go, to lose my mind but find my soul.”

My intention for a trail run is to get away, to separate from day-to-day life and to find that part of me that always feels better after a foray into the wilderness.

There’s another John Muir quote that best describes my intention, “Thousands of tired, nerve-shaken, over-civilized people are beginning to find out that going to the mountains is going home; that wildness is a necessity.”

I want to move across the trail quickly, but I also do not want to miss the scenery. I take pauses to just stand and take in the beauty that surrounds me.

Then I pound dirt once again. Most trail runners I know couldn’t tell you what that vista looked like. They couldn’t describe the blue of the hills that describes why the mountains of Virginia are often called the “blue ridges”.

At Peace with “Speed Hiker”

Relaxing in the evening after a day of speed hiking the Appalachian Trail. Photo by author.

There is a place for others like me whose spirit animal is the turtle. You don’t have to move fast or be equipped with the best technical gear to be a speed hiker.

I can get on a trail in khaki shorts and an old t-shirt and look like a total nerd and go out and rip off a good twenty mile trail run. Armed with my pack full of water and some snacks, I am going to get great exercise and see some amazing beauty.

I’ve made peace with being called a speed hiker.

I know I’ll never own a course record on a Strava segment nor become a local legend. I rarely run the same route twice, but am always seeking new routes and new trails to go get lost on.

If you get discouraged because you’re not out there ripping off seven-nine minute miles, don’t worry. You’re probably an awesome speed hiker who is going to get more joy from your time in the mountains than many of the runners out there who are racing through segments and missing the beauty.

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There’s Only One Direction as a Runner: Forward

Much like life, becoming better as a runner starts with moving forward.

Appalachian Trail in Virginia near Three Ridges Summit. Photo taken by author on the run.

While I was out running on the Appalachian Trail in Virginia, I went to reach for my bag of jerky in the front pocket of my hydration vest for a quick snack.

My hand came away empty. As I tried to figure out why there was no food in it, I remembered pulling it out just as I got to an area where I needed to scurry over a couple of downed trees.

Sadly, I realized that I must have dropped the bag in my scramble to get over the trees. Now I faced a dilemma that is much like life itself.

You always know where you’re going on the AT. Photo taken by author on the AT in Massachusetts.

Do I turn around and go back to find my bag of jerky? Or do I keep moving forward and just make do with whatever is in my pack?

As a runner, I’ve realized the value in relentless forward movement, so I shrugged my shoulders and kept on running.

The advantage in constantly moving forward, in running and life in general is you don’t have time to live in the land of regrets because you’re on to the new adventure.

It doesn’t mean you don’t learn from what happened in the past. You do. I realized I should be conscious of what’s in my hand before leaping over downed trees and perhaps even take a moment to tuck it back in its pocket so I’ll have it the next time I need it. I also learned there is an advantage in pre-planning and having nutrition alternatives available in my pack.

Relentless Forward Movement as a Way of Life

This topic is one of my favorite ones as it is the most listened-to podcast from Living an Ultra Life. It remains one of the most widely read articles I have written and was republished with my permission in Russia.

The reason is that so many people feel stuck in neutral.

A Psychology Today December 2016 article, “7 Ways to Get Yourself Unstuck,” describes this feeling as being “stuck in a rut,” but within this article presents seven ways to get unstuck.

I agree with all of the points made in that article, but my favorite is the second way: Change Your Perspective. “Once you release the grip of the past, you will see your reality in new ways and feel freer to change your attitude.

When you adopt relentless forward movement while running, you’re not focused on the lousy mile you just ran or the way you’re panting as you climb a hill. Instead, you’re focused on the one direction that will actually get you somewhere: forward.

Instead, you’re focused on the next mile, the next segment, and all the bad mojo gets flung into the breeze away from you.

Adopting relentless forward movement as a way of life is a whole new ballgame. Suddenly, instead of staying stuck on what your Aunt Suzy said about your zits when you were twelve, you remember that you were wondrously and fearfully made.

Whether you’re in a rough spot on a long run or a rough place in life, the only way to get over that rough spot is to move forward.

Adopt it as your mantra when in a tough spot and just keep repeating, “relentless forward movement.” Before you know it, you’ll be rounding the bend and see the finish line.

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Schedule “Lost in Forest” Time to Give Your Life a Breather

This may be one of the best things I’ve ever done for my mental health.

Lost in the forest time, Harper’s Creek Shelter on Three Ridges Summit Appalachian Trail Virginia. Taken by author while lost.

“Into the forest I go, to lose my mind and find my soul.” John Muir

This hangs on my office wall between my Appalachian Trail map and my calendar next to my stand-up desk.

It reminds me that no matter how driven I am for success, whether running, financial, marriage, or spiritual, I need to purposely schedule alone time in the forest or mountains.

When I purposely schedule time for a mental holiday, I am a much better person to be around. I am less anxious, I listen better, and I focus on daily tasks better.

A training element is built into all my forest escapes, but I’m there to get my head screwed on right again. That is the primary purpose.

To be better humans, taking care of our mental health is vital.

Build Giving Life a Breather and Live Better

A cairn is a waypoint on a trail. Photo by author on the Appalachian Trail near Waynesboro, Virginia.

I discussed this with a person I met on a trail who lives in a very large city, doesn’t drive or own a car, and yet has a bi-monthly meeting with the forest built into his schedule.

He prepares for this meeting as much as he prepares for a high-level meeting with clients in the city where he lives. He researches areas near him that he’d like to go, finds transportation to and from, and begins setting up his pack and camping gear the day after he gets back from the last trip.

He said that three things enable him to get out and clear his mind with the added bonus of his family knowing he’s going to be okay.

  1. He always leaves his travel plan to and from the area with his significant other. In addition, this person knows approximately where he will begin his “alone in the forest” time and where he will end. This is a safety element that will make everybody feel better about your adventure.
  2. He invested in a small pack, sleeping hammock, and mylar blanket for sleeping out overnight. He also has a small camp stove with a butane fuel canister to heat up coffee and food.
  3. Learn how to navigate in the wilderness and, if possible, take a wilderness survival course. Find an app that allows you to create waypoints. Then you can navigate to them using the offline maps feature or if your iPhone broke or you couldn’t maintain a charge, bring a water-proof map with your waypoints marked.

Once you’ve taken care of the safety aspects, it is just a matter of studying the weather and bringing enough gear that you’re ready for any adverse weather.

When I head into the forest to lose my mind and find my soul, I turn off as much electronic interference as possible. I don’t listen to music and only pull my cell phone out of my pack if there is a really awesome photo I want to send my wife.

Otherwise, this is my mental health check-up. The forest and mountains are professionals and much less expensive for me. The forest and mountains listen and don’t try to fix me with words or a pill. The forest and mountains fix me with the silence that is needed to be a better human.

I’m not saying this technique will work for everybody. I will say that you’ll be amazed how much more at peace with yourself you will be upon your return to the hustle and bustle of everyday life.

With all that, there’s nothing left to say. Except maybe, “have fun. You’re going to thank yourself when you’re done!”

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A Day to Remember: September 11, 2001

How will you remember the 2,977 innocent lives taken on this day?

My favorite 9/11 Memorial that is in Jersey City, NJ. Photo by Partha Narasimhan on Unsplash

I doubt that anybody in America will soon forget the day planes were flown into the Twin Towers in New York City, the Pentagon and a heroic take-over of the plane that was to be flown into the U.S. Capital Building.

I know I sat in shock in our apartment in Almaty, Kazakhstan where we had arrived a month earlier. We had just moved into the apartment and were enjoying our first AOL chat with my sister-in-law after figuring out how to set up dial-up internet in sign language since we barely spoke the language at the time.

We turned on the television as the second tower fell and watched a CNN feed with Russian translated over the English words we tried desperately to understand. In shock we wondered how this would affect us and what it meant for the project we had prepared to launch.

Our lives changed that day and that is why September 11 is always something to remember. It’s not an anniversary. It’s not a celebration, but it is a solemn day to remember the innocent lives that were taken.

Terror became normal, fear became a tool for the political elite to use to control others.

Mostly though, I saw amazing gestures by every day Americans who weren’t divided by political party and ideology. I long for those days.

I experienced the love of people we didn’t know, but who knew we were Americans and we were grieving our fellow Americans. We experienced hospitality like seldom experienced before

That is why early in the morning on September 11, 2021 I will lace up my running shoes and take off to run 29.77 miles to honor those who gave their lives in a horrific way. Each stride will be to honor those who weren’t given the opportunity to live out their hopes, dreams and plans.

I’ll be praying for those who died that day, the many first responders who have died since, the 2448 soldiers who gave their lives in a never ending war and the families of those whose lives were altered on a day of terror.

What will you be doing to remember all those who died this horrific day and to honor them and their families?

Here are a couple of suggestions if you’re not a runner:

  1. 2,977 seconds of silence. Don’t respond on social media posts of any kind with your typical “you’re wrong, I’m right” blast. Hold off for almost 50 minutes from doing so. It’s the least you can do to remember.
  2. Take 2,977 seconds to be kind to a stranger. This is especially powerful if you show kindness to somebody who believes differently than you do. Being kind is a fantastic characteristic that would go great lengths to remember those who lost their lives.
  3. Do something totally outside your normal routine for 2,977 seconds. Seriously, it’s just shy of 50 minutes. Listen respectfully to your significant other. Show somebody from a different political persuasion kindness and gratitude. Go for a walk. I don’t care what it is but when you break up your normal, it plants a subconscious thought in your mind that there is something different about this day.

Whatever you do, make this September 11 a special 20th Day of Remembrance and use the 2,977 seconds to create to be a better version of you.

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Run Free by Developing An Attitude of Gratitude

Let appreciativeness be the secret weapon to get you through any run.

Grateful for a run in a rainstorm on the Appalachian Trail. Photo by author on the AT near Race Brook Falls in MA.

I was running on the Appalachian Trail in a rainstorm that had shown passing on the radar. As I ran along, I began to grumble about the conditions and the slipperiness of the trail.

As I listened to my audible and inaudible groaning, I stopped. Right in the middle of the trail, I just stopped and yelled at myself. “Do you know how many people would love to be moving like you are right now?”

I took my glasses cloth out of the plastic bag I keep it in, wiped my glasses, and silently whispered, “thank you!”

Being thankful for the opportunity to run isn’t a new revelation, and I hope it never is.

My hope is to be able to run everyday. Running fills me with a sense of thankfulness. I treasure the opportunity to not just be physically able to run but to also to see the beauty in nature that so many are not able to experience.

G.K. Chesterton, in his essay, A Short History of England(1917), wrote, “I would maintain that thanks are the highest form of thought; and that gratitude is happiness doubled by wonder.”

It is with this type of thanks I lace up my shoes and go running. You would be amazed what happens when you just take one mile off focusing on setting the new land speed record and instead, be grateful.

Join the Gratitude Mile Club

I first heard about this whole concept of instituting a gratitude mile into your runs when struggling to come back from inner ear surgery in 2018.

After six weeks of no exertion because of surgery to my inner ear, I found myself unable to sustain running even one mile after three or four weeks. Most of my “runs” were actually just walks!

I talked to a friend about the frustration, and she emailed me an article from Women’s Running by Allie Burdick. As I first read, “Can Gratitude Make You a Better Runner?” I was filled with hope.

I read with excitement Maureen Gillespie’s keynote speech for the Psychology and Neuroscience commencement ceremony at the University of New Hampshire. Simply titled “Gratitude” and posted on the Harrier and Hounds website, the line, “I was grateful for the opportunity to finish a race that gives you so many reasons to want to quit.” was familiar to me.

The reason it was familiar was that I often feel incredibly thankful when I finish a race or difficult run, no matter if I finish Dead Fricking Last (DFL).

Somewhere along the trails running, I lost that sense of appreciation for the ability to run. I got caught up in trying to get faster, be stronger, and accumulate impressive stats. Reading both of these pieces gave me the glimmer of hope that I could rehab and make it back, but first, I needed to change my attitude.

So, I resolved to change my attitude about running.

Every time I set out for a run now, I make sure there is at least one mile out of every run that I don’t think about pace, gait, distance, or any of the other myriads of statistics one can think about while running.

I make sure that there is at least one mile where I concentrate on being thankful. I thank my creator that as I approach sixty, I’m still able to get out and run insane distances for insane amounts of time.

There are many forms of the gratitude mile, and even more came out during the 2020 lockdown period. The key is to take a mile and look beyond the statistics for what you can be thankful for.

Pre-plan a mile stretch that you’re just going to concentrate on situations and people that bring you a sense of gratefulness. I like to take a mile of every run and inwardly express thankfulness for a friend or colleague. Often, this ends up being my wife.

When I’m going through a rough patch during an ultra-marathon, taking my mind off the pain often involves thinking of someone or something I am grateful for and then concentrating on that rather than the pain and discomfort.

Gratitude Creates a Spring In Your Step

The keynote speech by Gillespie, noted above, has a ton of research about the effect of gratitude on our life.

This paragraph from her speech is one I carry with me during races or particularly tough training runs. I can take it out and re-wire my brain, so I’m not so focused on being in the pain cave.

“Research has also focused on not just experiencing the emotion of gratitude, but the trait of being a grateful person and its relationship to well-being. Wood and colleagues found that people who score higher on scales measuring how often and how intensely they feel gratitude tend to handle stress and setbacks better. More grateful people tend to use more positive coping strategies like seeking out emotional support from others and planning for the future and use fewer negative coping strategies like substance abuse, blame, and denial when faced with obstacles.”

It is better than anything I have found while running ultra-marathons as I allow my mind to drift into gratitude and gratefulness. I know that physically it’s probably not true, but mentally I am filled with a renewed energy and purpose.

I remember coming up the final hill during the JFK 50 Miler in November 2020. As tears filled my eyes, I was alive with gratitude for the opportunity to run this race in particular, but also that I had been strengthened after severely twisting my ankle at mile 16.

For 35 miles of the JFK race, I just kept repeating words of gratitude. I’d think of things I was thankful for, from the mundane to the big ones. Even when I was running with other people, I would suddenly burst out with a gratitude statement. They’d look at me weird, but I didn’t care.

I’m grateful for my wife and her accepting that I am insane and desire to run long distances for long amounts of time.

I’m thankful for that chicken broth. It tasted like a gourmet meal.

I’m thankful that one of my ankles feels great!” You should have seen the look on the guy’s face I was running with at the last aid station when I said that out loud!

Gratitude will get you through a lot of things. Developing this as a habit just may be the secret sauce that brings us all through this race called life.

Find something to be thankful for on your next run and test to see if it works for you or not. I’m willing to bet you’ll be thankful that you read this article and developed an attitude of gratitude.

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Success Comes When You Break Out of the “Half In” Trap

Being fully committed is the first key to success.

Breaking out of the “half in” trap involves bridging the gap between failure and success. Photo by author on Appalachian Trail in Virginia.

In 2017 I had one of the most miserable running years I could ever hope to have. Endurance race after race, I would be right on the precipice of finishing races, and something unforeseen would happen. I would end up with a DNF (Did Not Finish) behind my name.

The same thing happened in the first two races I ran in 2018, and I was beginning to wonder if I was even capable of finishing anything further than a marathon.

Then I entered a unique 12-Hour race with four routes chosen by pulling a colored ball out of a jar. Each colored ball represented different mileage and level of difficulty of the trail.

Somewhere around the six-hour mark, I pulled the most difficult colored ball for the fourth time in a row. This was an 8-mile loop with two challenging ascents, and it was getting hot.

The familiar feeling of oncoming disaster due to a sour stomach that didn’t want to hold anything down began to creep in. I wondered when everything would go to crap, and I would limp down the mountain to the finish line early.

In my head, I was already picturing failure.

While deep in the suffering cave, the most amazing thing happened.
As I crawled along the trail, another gentleman about five years older than me came up behind me. I was a little startled when he began to talk to me.

He was pretty friendly and fell into my turtle crawl pace and then said the words to me that seemed to finally break through the failure surrounding me.

“You’re half in. Look, get out of that bear trap and set your mind free to see success.”

He then guided me to picture success instead. As we crawled along the trail and began the steeper pitch up the side of the mountain, he told me to stop.

Then he told me to take deep breaths in and out slowly, and he taught me to see the top of the ascent we were about to make. He then had me picture coming back down to the one aid station where we would eat something successfully and choose another ball for six more hours.

As I released the tension, I physically began to feel better. I ate some granola, drank some electrolyte water, and then with this incredible man behind me coaching, assaulted that ascent like it was a downhill section.

By the time we ran into the aid station together, we were laughing, and we both picked our next ball together. I, of course, selected the challenging route again, and he picked the easiest route.

As we departed, he told me, “now you’re fully committed. If you feel that half-in trap coming again, stop and picture breaking out of it.”

I never saw him again that day, but that one lesson not only helped me finish that twelve-hour race successfully with a 48-mile finish. I kept moving and crossed the line with the clock showing 11:59:48.

I was overjoyed and felt twenty years younger. I had learned a valuable lesson that day.

Doing anything “half in” is really being all out. Success in running and anything else in life comes when you are fully committed.

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Running Fifty Over Fifty

Race in Sheridan WY

As I finished up my last training run for an upcoming fifty mile ultra race, I realized that it has only been nine years since my first run and in July I’ll celebrate the fifth year of my first ultra run.

I didn’t set out with a goal to be a runner and definitely not a crazy ultra runner.

My goal when I began was to become healthier physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually.

The desire was to stop living a broken life and discover what it means to live a full life.

From Brokenness to Strength

My first run was to the end of the block and back. I was over 250 pounds, my knees shot spasms of pain through my body every step. 

Forget the back from the end of the block. I was so out of breath I thought I was having a heart attack.

I lived though and learned to love my short runs. As I did, my physical health became stronger.

Mentally I was broken also. I had fallen back into believing what was said to me often as I grew up. “You’ll never amount to anything” was the regular mantra I heard from everybody around me.

As I began to run more miles, I began to believe I could be something. I believed there was greatness within me and I just had to find it.

Emotionally, I was a broken mess. I was trying to figure out why my wife stayed with such a miserable, angry mess who was constantly breaking things mentally, emotionally and spiritually.

As I ran, there was an outlet for my broken emotions and I was able to listen to my wife and friends again. I became a source of emotional strength for others.

Spiritually, although I identified as a Jesus follower, I was broken inside because I doubted that God cared for me, much less loved me.

As I ran I began to lay my doubts and unbelief down. I realized that Jesus didn’t owe me anything because He had already done it all for me.

Deciding the Second Half Would be Stronger

Starting running – Dismal Swamp Trail, Chesapeake VA

The year I turned 50 in 2014, I decided that to celebrate the occasion I would run 50 miles on my birthday.

The amount of training I did was tremendous and very difficult. Every week found me in a different city all over the United States. The stressful work of building a start-up company’s sales was endless. 

Getting up before dawn to get a good four to six mile run in before I started sales calls was a sacrifice. A serendipity was that I saw more of that city than most of the citizens would as they say in bumper to bumper traffic pursuing the great American Dream.

By the time my birthday arrived on July 3, I had finished multiple weekend runs over 26.2 miles (marathon) and without knowing it had finished my first ultra run of 32 miles.

I began my birthday run at 4 AM with a 19 mile run around my town. I came home, changed clothes and ate a big breakfast and then left after twenty minutes for the hot, punishing part of my run out of the city and onto the country roads.

My parents surprised me by contacting a local reporter who met me at the thirty mile mark and interviewed me for that night’s newscast.

When the reporter asked me why I was doing what I was doing, I’ll never forget what I said.

“Symbolically, the decision to run 50 miles on my 50th birthday is about making the decision to start the second half of my life strong. Finishing this 50 miles will help me realize I’ve been carried out of brokenness to fullness of life.”

Running with friends – Tongue River Canyon Trail – outside Dayton WY

Life Is Just Starting

I run with a bunch of friends, all going through life’s challenges and all of us encouraging each other to be more.

We’ve run multiple races together but our best memories are the crazy runs we’ve done together. Nighttime forty mile runs, 50K runs just for fun, 4x4x48 challenges where we’ve run four miles every four hours for forty-eight hours.

Foot problems, health issues, work challenges and all the brokenness involved can’t rob us of living a full life.

Deciding to live life to the full is what it’s all about.

I didn’t decide to start running because I wanted to be a runner.

I started running because I wanted to live.

If you’d like to start living life again. 

If the brokenness has drained you and left your dream ship high and dry. 

If you think the best years have passed you by.

I have a secret for you. Those are all lies and it’s time to start living again.

If you’re slightly curious, drop me a line and ask me how you can start living again also.